Take a look at me now

I am a pathetic mess, a pathetic wreck, i don't know, there are so many things around me that remind me of you. Woman, you have left me with not only my heart but also my soul. I am sure you don't even care, so it's ok.

The current state

I'm still bloody depressed as a motherfucker, it has lasted for 9 or so days, the pain is unbearable...

Man this sucks...

It seems

That i don't blog nowadays, which makes it somewhat odd, of sorts, but i am here now, not quite sure of what to do and its already 3.12, depending on where you are, time is not the same you know, neither is it cheap. So yeah, instead of writhing my sorrows away, i think it's time for a blog post, or so to speak, because somehow, i think that i have gone soft. When i read all of the posts that i have done before, it brings me to the realisation that somehow i was kinda fucked up back then, not to the extent where i should be considered as a crime against nature, but i was, carefree.

I did some looking back at my older posts. They are sort of cool (well, to me i guess) and i did laughed at the enormous amounts of mistakes i have done in the past, which is keeping my mind active, for a while. Oh well, the pain is here again, just have to let it heal in time.

I love you

I really do, it's painful for me to let you go but somehow i have to, it hurts so much woman because nobody has opened me up the way you do, i am pretty sure that you'll never open this blog, or whatever it is because i don't either. Let's just say this post is a memoir of a broken man with the thought that he would never love again but somehow he did and got his heart broken by the girl he loved so much. The decisions i make in life would never suffice to the expected outcome and its devastating, i would really love to have another moment with you but i think that won't happen anymore. Goodbye woman, if you do stumble upon this, just so you know that i would always love you and i really miss you sunshine.